Author(s): Bill Blaikie
In 2004, Lieutenant Colonel William Blaikie shipped out to Afghanistan to head up a team dedicated to rebuilding the country after the war. As part of the New Zealand Defence Force, his skills lay in intelligence and communications - his mission was to form a team, develop and implement plans to work with the United States and Coalition partners to help get Afghanistan back on its feet. Bill experienced situations that were beyond tense, often facing life and death situations and decision making that required deep and quick thinking, based on not always having enough information at hand. On his return home to New Zealand, his journey in coping with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) began, and the nightmares were not limited to sleep time. Everything has remained at life and death levels for Bill, and this book details how he and his wife Nancy have worked through suicide attempts, getting help, and finding answers to what is an epidemic level challenge for military personnel everywhere. 'No amount of training can prepare you for what happens in your head after the uniforms are off and the guns are packed away.'